When I wake up.

I want to be 100lbs lighter

With Whiter teeth

with prettier hair

with the ability to

perfect Motherhood. 

When I wake up

I want to march to my own beat

I want to paint a picture of

where I use to be. 

When I wake up

I want the summer to burn my face

The birds to Sing in my ear

and be Warm with Perfect Grace

When I wake up

I want to be strong enough to hold on tighter

Be brave enough to fight longer

When I wake up

I want to remember

who I was

Remember What I was

And forget the things I am never going to be

When I wake up I want 

you to kiss me on the forehead

and pull my eyelids shut.. 

When I wake up

I want to be relieved from the fright

the pain

the horror of my thoughts

I want to be lifted into light

When I wake up,

Don't Cry for me.

I'll wake up with peace and serenity

I'm laying down to be forever gone

Dont miss me too much.. 

Because When I wake up. 

I'll be where I was meant to. 

Where Purity and Honesty

Compassion and dignity 

hold true.

I'll be pure..