Well I though Colorado was for me.

GUESS NOT!!
Arizona is. I just spent 5 days in heaven!! 75 degree weather in January. t-shirts. shorts. Fishing. Park Playing. Zoo going. WE even saw the Human Bodies exibit!! AMAZING!!
I need to go back there soon!

Martin Luther King Jr.

I posted EXcerts from his "I have a dream speach" in an earlier post. But I wanted to share 3 of my all time favorite MLK jr quotes. Things I stand firm in my ideals and beliefs. Ways I want to live my life. ways I want my children to grow up understanding.

Human progress is neither automatic nor inevitable.. Every step toward the goal of justice requires sacrifice, suffering, and struggle - MLK

I've decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear. MLK

 Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere-MLK.

 

Think about these things. Because they hold true even today. With all the crap that goes on around us. The Hate, The Injustice, The Selfishness.. Its AMAZING to be free of the Racism. The Hate and the Selfishness. My heart bleeds for everyone.  Love is the Rawest human emotion. But the one that everyone fears. Hate is easy to have in our hearts.. Try Loving. It makes the burdens of the world seem far less great. 

 

MLK Jr.. T

"I say to you today, my friends, so even though we face the difficulties of today and tomorrow, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream.
I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men are created equal."
I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood.
I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a state sweltering with the heat of injustice, sweltering with the heat of oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice.
I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.
I have a dream today.
I have a dream that one day, down in Alabama, with its vicious racists, with its governor having his lips dripping with the words of interposition and nullification; one day right there in Alabama, little black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls as sisters and brothers.
I have a dream today.
I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight, and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together.
This is our hope. This is the faith that I go back to the South with. With this faith we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair a stone of hope. With this faith we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our nation into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood. With this faith we will be able to work together, to pray together, to struggle together, to go to jail together, to stand up for freedom together, knowing that we will be free one day.
This will be the day when all of God's children will be able to sing with a new meaning, "My country, 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty, of thee I sing. Land where my fathers died, land of the pilgrim's pride, from every mountainside, let freedom ring."
And if America is to be a great nation this must become true. So let freedom ring from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire. Let freedom ring from the mighty mountains of New York. Let freedom ring from the heightening Alleghenies of Pennsylvania!
Let freedom ring from the snowcapped Rockies of Colorado!
Let freedom ring from the curvaceous slopes of California!
But not only that; let freedom ring from Stone Mountain of Georgia!
Let freedom ring from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee!
Let freedom ring from every hill and molehill of Mississippi. From every mountainside, let freedom ring.
And when this happens, when we allow freedom to ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual, "Free at last! free at last! thank God Almighty, we are free at last!"

Fitting in.

Ever feel like you belong somewhere

other than where you are right now?

My husband and I lived in Montrose, Colorado

For 3 years. We had friends

We laughed, We loved.

Our kids fit in 

I fit in. 

I had friends that never looked down on me

They loved me. Because of my faults

Regaurdless

We are in Montrose right now.

Visiting friends and family

and then we are headed south to Arizona.

I come here and I feel like I am home.

I feel the embrace of the community.

Word gets around that i'm here and I get

Countless phone calls.

Come visit me! When can I see you? 

Lets do lunch. I want to come over and give you a hug!!

I feel like this is where i belong.

I wish I could stay forever.

Get back into my routine 

of girls nights. play dates.. 

bonko, Card group

Church Most of all

I miss church here.

Being here, just feels right. 

:D

Serendipidous

 

Love this Song!

My new Favorite right now!! 

:D

wondering.

Why me?!

I wish....

My life had a soundtrack.

It would be pretty entertaining

I wonder what it would have in it?

Some Nsync from my younger years

Some Depeche Mode from my

"I want to live in the 80's" stage

I wonder what would be my

Theme song would be..

Whats do you think

yours should be?

Nothing but Grey Skies...

  You see that big cloud of grey yucky smoggy air??
Well i'm underneath it somewhere.. Its disgusting..
Hopefully the winter wont last much Longer and I will be able to
breath air that isnt Chunky anymore..
Gag... Gasp.... Hack... Thats my life right now.

I want...

feety Pajamas.... That is all



AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Obsessed.

I dont know if you have ever watched this show. 

It is AMAZING

It higlights people that suffer from 

Mental disorders. 

OCD

OCTD

AGORAPHOBIA

TRICHOTILLOMANIA

as well as many others. 

Well anyway 

I totally had one of those weekends

It was like the whole world was crashing on my head

I was so consumed with fear and death 

all I wanted to do was crawl into a hole and die.

I was getting to the point with my 

OCTD(obsessive compulsive thinking disorder)

that I was afraid to breath. 

I was afraid that I was going to breath in 

some sort of Bio-Chemical agent 

that was going to kill me.

I spent all night NYE crying my eyes out.

I completly convinced myself that I wasnt going

to wake up in the morning.

I told my husband to leave me and take the kids

So they wouldnt find me dead the next day.

I don't know what triggered it. 

All I know is that i was literally 

OBSESSED

with the idea that I was going to die.

I was ready to end my life

before my life could end me. 

I prayed for peace. 

I cried for mercy 

and I hoped for death. 

I am thankful I made it through. 

That I finally cried myself to sleep

and woke up at peace the next day. 

I am hoping that I can find something

that will help me NEVER go through that again. 

Because I dont know if I will make it through

another crazy night like that.

Obsessed.

Have you ever watched that Show Obsessed on A&E?
Well that was my weekend.. I will tell you all more about it tomorrow
Good night

2010-2011

Well My New Years Eve was a total Bust

I rang in the New Year with an Ambien

and Husbands snoring.

So heres what I want for myself in 2011

a little more

Stability

Laughter

Insight

Freedom

Hope

So Let 2011 Come and Let me 

Love Deeper

Laugh Harder

Live More Dangerously

Dance in the Rain

Sing Louder

Happy New Year Friends.. 

:)