Feelings..

Today I feel..

Mournful

If you have never felt that way

let me give you an insight into

what it feels like..

I have been spending the last few weeks

horribly depressed..

Like a big grey cloud is hanging over me

and I'll I can feel on my face

is cold wet rain.

Desperate for sunshine..

Yester I felt

Happy..

Today,

I am mourning

the glimpse of happiness

Knowing its not going to come back for

a while..

I spend at least 90% of the year

Drowning in sadness..

and 10% of it happy.

Those days are few and far between.

Yesterday was one of those.

I was glad to be with my husband

Happy to be with my kids

and Exhilirated to know

I had made it to another happy day

If I can just harness the happiness

and use it all year.. maybe for 5 minutes

a day

I wouldnt be so miserable..

But here I am..

Grey Clouds in my forecast..

Until the next time..

I see sunshine.