What it takes to do what I do everyday.

Acting Skills, Teaching Skills, Writing Skills, Healing Skills, Reading Skills, Math Skills, Cooking Skills, Believing in the impossible skills. And most importantly Binge Drinking Skills.
Not everyone can do it.. and only the Greats
(Like me) can do it well.. Being a Mother, A wife, A lover, a fighter, a Narrator, A director, a teacher of fine human skills is hard work.. And this is how I do it. Or try anyway.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

abandonment

I need to write.
Maybe in blood. Maybe in tears
Maybe with the ink of my soul
With each tap of the keys on this keyboard 
I move further away from the cluttered
overwhelming Enviornment that keeps
bringing me into sadness
The ups and downs of life
The ins and outs of Motherhood
The Smiles and tears of carrying everyone
else's burdens.
Adding weight onto my shoulders with every passing 
stress.
with relief comes abandoment.
With abandoment comes peace.
Peace casts out the undesired fears
The unwanted memories of the hard stuff
The toughness that comes with life.
I want to be free
To be wanted and desired.
To be understood and welcomed
To be thought of. 
I need sleep. 
Overwhelming tiredness
to be washed away.
I want to breath it in.
The peace that the smell of my pillow brings
The instant relaxation that a soft bed and a strong man bring.
Maybe in my dreams I can live a life of free of heartache and pain.

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